Aku Bukan Untuk Mu by VE

Forget the layu version from the ori singer. RnB version is available, and none other can do it better than VE. Anything from VE is great! You'll love it.

Why ensabie?

Such a weird name for a blog right? :D.

Hope this will explain everything.

Ensabie is actually modified from the word Ensabi which is a food. I love food!

Ensabi is a preserved local spinach. In some resources, it is called Sarawak native mustard. Very popular among the Sarawakians, especially the Ibans.

the after-cut version of ensabi
-credit to pejalai-

I presume there are lots of way of cooking ensabi. But he (bukan nama sebenar), who happens to be the first person who introduced this food to me, prefer to stir fry it with some garlic, dried fish (or anchovies will do). And eat it with hot rice. *berliur suda bah*

It tastes delicious bah. I can taste the sourness of ensabi, the strong flavor of garlic and the kampung taste of the dried fish.. Hohoho..The combination of the triad is really good!

ensabi, garlic and dried fish look fun together :p

this is another version of cooked ensabi. Yummy!
-credit to uchukeling.com-

I really really love ensabi hence a blog is named after it. With the addition of e, people wont mis'think' this blog as a food blog (although in the future there is a tendency to become one..ngeh ngeh)

You might ask, how on earth this sabahan lass knows much about this sarawakian food.

Why?

(because her boyfriend is a sarawakian, a lucky iban guy) If u can read this, ur eyes is good or i need the smallest smallest font size.

Hohoho..

My Saturday

Sleep. Eat. Pee. Poo. Sleep. Eat. Pee. Poo. + 30mins cooking slot + endless internet surfs These are more or less my activities today. And plus, that somebody ignores me when thing turn out to be ok. Teruk! gth! Enough with that. Let's talk about Food. Tell me who doesnt like to eat Char Kuay Teow? ( Meh sini, I'll convert you)

mau convert suda?

I'll bet most of you will go to the nearest restaurant and tapau this mouth watering dish..

Nameless post

• Time is very much occupied now. I haven't found a job yet, but been busy preparing some docs and other stuffs la.
• I've been interviewed today, hopefully i can get the job. I'll die if i stay unemployed until convo.
• Bak kata si Tal, my chatbox is getting active nowadays. Haha.. Good la. No need to post anything la kan tal, reading my chatbox pun kira update la juga.
• Time flies really fast. June is about to come to the end, then after few blinks away, birthday ku tiba lagi. Hoho..

Last but not least, big HI to all the bloggers that happen to drop by here.

Hi there :-)

(auw,not big enough)

The reason why i cant be sad now!

This post is made for a purpose and only certain people will get the points. When my mum died of cancer 7 years ago, her death is a great grief to us. It was only 2 months after we moved to KK; at times when me and the rest of my siblings trying to fit in into the new place, new school. Can you imagine how chaotic my life was? I dont think you can! After she died, distant families, my aunts, uncles, and the rest blood-related relatives come to us and comforting us in the best way that they can. I am grateful to have that good support system. I was so messed up, was so blank, was so down, and it affects my body badly. The painful is larger than i can handle, i think. All the advices from families only last for 1 sec; i dont think they understand the pain, the advices they gave, sounded so typical. Like skema jawapan, precisely. Thus, when you are dealing with someone who has lost their loved one, dont dare telling them 'I undertand what you've been thru' unless, you have experienced one. We aint stupid ok. So when that's the case, I blocked anyone's advices. That's when i realize, no one can help me but myself. Being a catholic, i find peace in Rosary. It helps me, big time. The 7 days mourning period was great. I somehow, mend myself indirectly with prayers. Though i rarely attend mass (ya, i know preach me now), I am so grateful to be bless in this way. And i believe i am a stronger person ,ever since. If her loss is replace by this new found strength, then all the tears and pains are worth it. She would be proud, i know. 7 years has gone by. The rest is history. I am glad i survived. I have been into the darkest 'abyss', but i survived in the end. When you think you aint got any hope, you are wrong! Oh well, panjang betul. Anyway, save the sympathy to other people who needs it. I'm doing fine.

Mari men-tagging

Thehornbill tagged me.. Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. I me-removekan this Q : What is your idea of relaxation? (Lame Q..borengggg..) 1. At what age do you wish to marry? - At any age before i hit 30. 2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? - UK 3. What's your favorite thing to do? - Sleeping. I'm having trouble of getting a good one nowadays. 4. Do you think money can buy happiness? - In any ways, no. 5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? - To have a life of Oprah. 6. Do you believe you can survive without money? - No. Money has become the necessity, that explain why people works hard to earn one. 7. What are you afraid to lose the most? - Family, loved ones. Been there, done that. But still, the pain is unbearable. Believe me, you would'nt want to feel that AGAIN after been through the 1st one. 8. What is your current mood? - By all means, i need to enlighten him. 2 peoples in down mood is not good hence to be sad is a big no. And i wont! 9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? - Yes, and the love story begins.. ngeh ngeh.. 10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you? - TheHornbill.. my FSIL (haha,go figure). Very direct like his bro, soft spoken which suits her name well, a very loving sister. 11. What are the requirements that you wish from the other half? - He MUST be mentally stable because i can be very hard to handle at times. trustworthy and love cats. 12. What type of person do you hate the most? - same as Hornbill. Already terkena with this type thus push me to draw a boundary with friends. I have less than 10 friends whom i really can put my trust in. 13. What is your ambition? - To be like Oprah, the only difference is i don't like to be on tv. 14. What is your favourite word/words? - 'taik kau sana' 15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? - Love (very subjective, i know..hihi) 16. If you can teleport once, where would you go? - Sarikei :p 17. Do fix a broken heart or let Time heal the Pain? - Both will work. As for me, i rather fix it than to rely on time to mend it. But of course, time is the catalyst. 18. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? - I am impatient, wish i can remove that. 19. What are your habits? - Drinking coffee has become a habit. I lafff.. 20. If one day you couldn't do the things that you are used to do now anymore, how would you feel? - Screw it.. I have a life to live! Anyone who is reading..You have been tagged! Miahahahaha..

Motivational poster of my own

Create your own here

Spread the news

The news can be access here

Her brother happens to be my senior back in secondary school. Help him to spread the news around, and i wish him all the best in the her sister's finding.

Make beagle happy..

I'm going to have you as my primary pet, you cute lil beagle.

I will! *woof woof*

A new baby..

Electricity basic for beginners. Read it here Surprise Surprise!! Ya, i have a new blog. A serious one

Oh man..

I have been hiding my identity all this while. Why? No reason.. saja..

Addressing myself as "Mell: Not a simple lass" without any pic of me is enough to show you. All of the people that i linked in the 'BF and GF's' section are the only peeps who have seen me in a non virtual world. So now, no more hiding. See for yourself, me in BnW version. Ya, BnW. Colored version can be boring sometimes. I edit the pic by using FSresizer. I love using that software because of its simplicity. You can make tonnes of modification on your pic, and at the end, you can save the modification and apply it to other pic without have to remember all the steps and redo it again. How peanut is that? FSresizer details And best of all, it's free! I love freeware. The size is much smaller than Photoshop. And guess what, you can also download the portable version of the software. Again, how sejuk is that? download FSresizer You are going to love it! Enjoy..

In case you sense any change in my blog..

The only reason: I have lots of time to kill. I will update the links field later. Right now i want to mend my broken heart. Oh well then, i expect not to sleep well tonight.

I need a break...

Dan Hill- Sometimes when we touch You ask me if I love you And I choke on my reply I'd rather hurt you honestly Than mislead you with a lie And who am I to judge you On what you say or do? I'm only just beginning to see the real you And sometimes when we touch The honesty's too much And I have to close my eyes and hide I wanna hold you til I die Til we both break down and cry I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides Romance and all its strategy Leaves me battling with my pride But through the insecurity Some tenderness survives I'm just another writer Still trapped within my truth A hesitant prize fighter Still trapped within my youth At times I'd like to break you And drive you to your knees At times I'd like to break through And hold you endlessly At times I understand you And I know how hard you've tried I've watched while love commands you And I've watched love pass you by At times I think we're drifters Still searching for a friend A brother or a sister But then the passion flares again ~Song that suits me well now.~