Oct 28, 2011

Writing mode

My thesis-writing setting.

facing the wide Sg. Batang Rajang. Halo Sibu.

When i'm on my quick neck stretch, i just flip the curtain and enjoy the view

Not the typical sea view punya view (??) nonetheless, it's good to have this kind of setting when you're doing a task that requires 110% of your focus. My 2 long years work depends strongly on this thesis. You see, one can do enormous kinds of work but at the end of the day, all the hard work boils down to one single paper/report that defines it. So kalau bos bilang 'buat balik ini report/thesis', means whatever you wrote is not convincing enough. So if you cant convince them, confuse them (??)

The most difficult thing in writing this so far is to organize every facts in my head and type it down accordingly.
I've tried to organize the facts by drafting it in my book,but once i started typing, all the planned flow is changing. I've tried typing sub topic by sub topic but when i joined them to make a 'story', i still have to change here and there coz they appear individually rather than a continuation of something. Last2, i delete everything and write from scratch coz apa yang suda ada bikin bingung seja. Anyway, chapter outline is the first, must-thing to do. It focuses your mind to write accordingly. 

And a good place to write complements everything. I'm not implying the message of having to stay in hebat2 place just to write anything nice, it just complements the right state of mind that u're in.

Ok lah, that's all. Pening pula sy tgk tulisan panjang2 disini.

Oct 26, 2011

Oct 24, 2011

I view it differently

Upon reading Just post about this, it brings back memories of almost 13 years ago. Most of my friends know the fact that my mom had passed away due to cancer,and despite me writing down few posts in my blog about her, only few know the story behind it.

My late mom is a nurse, and even a nurse herself, she found out about the 50sen size of lump on her left breast quite late. She was 40. During that moment we were still in Lahad Datu, so mom and dad had to traveled to Tawau, the nearest hospital with such facilities for treatment. She went to operation and removed her whole left breast. When she returned home, she was never the same person anymore. I was 13-14, it was painful to not be able to do anything.

Fast forward, after the operation and months of healing process, i can see that she regained her old self back. She had moved on with life, even start working again. Everything is good. Until a year later.

She went for post review after the operation, and Dr. mentioned her cancerous cell were spreading. She played it cool this time, she went for chemo treatments. I saw the physical changes of her after chemo, but as far as i can recall, she never complained. How difficult it must be for her to stay positive despite the pain that she faced, and to see us everyday, knowing it might be her last day with us. Anyway, i am glad she did that, coz it has left a profound impact on myself, especially at times of trial. She chose to stay optimistic and never give up.

She passed away peacefully on June 2001 at the age of 43. Only that time i know about how severe her cancer was. It was already spreading to the liver. I took me a week after her passing to say 'I am glad God ended her suffering', i believe in God's way although i seldom go to church.

The cancer had damaged my mom's body but never her strength. And that is the greatest legacy that she left us with. That attitude had shaped me to become who i am today.

Besides, i had a new perspective of death. I read a book about the prisoners during Pol Pot's era, they viewed death as 'a privilege' coz they rather be dead than be perpetually tortured. Similarly in a way, I believe God loves her more, so He took her to heaven and end her sufferings. While i was browsing the old album at home, i saw her funeral pictures and the image of her lifeless body in the coffin. I cant shed a tear anymore, i am just thankful it happened.

My late mom during her life, is a strong fighter, optimistic and always put her children first. Ma, although your time is short, you've taught us enough. You are always in our mind in everything we do.

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Overdue post

As mentioned in my last post, i attended a conference in USM engineering campus in Nibong Tebal, Penang as a paper presenter. I arrived in Bayan Lepas International airport a day earlier from the conference date, fetched by the conference' secretariate, and headed straight to Nibong Tebal. The journey took about 1 hour coz it was a peak hour which cause congestion especially at the Penang bridge. Despite that, we managed to take pictures on the bridge itself yihuuu.

Throughout the conference, the participants stayed in the postgrad hostels located outside the campus, if i get it right, Desasiswa is the name. I loveeee the hostel, we have bathroom inside our room (not the sharing type oukay), there's a lif (hahaha) up to level 7 (my room is at level 6), and most importantly we have the view of jalan raya with mat rempit merempit every weekend starting friday night. Now i can officially declared i have witness the real scene of mat rempit doing superman pose on their bike and yang satu orang tu lagi berdiri di belakang -_-". What a scene. kalau ada polis lagi siok (??)

My presentation was scheduled at the last session, as expected not many audiences but the secretariats, the other presenters and the chairperson himself. I was expecting less question as well, but boy how wrong i was. My chair person is a man of curiosity. I ended my presentation answering no less than 5 questions. Anyway, i enjoyed the session. This is way different from my past experiences presenting in exhibitions, in competitions coz the chairperson is always an academician, they (most of the time) asked the right question, the kind of question that you always doubt in conducting your research. Boleh bikin gagap oh dengar soalan begitu.

Apart from that, i received so many funny responses from the international participants. A friend from HK asked me why i do not wear a hijab, he even asked the male driver 'how many wives you have' -_-", some thought i look like pan asian -_-", my Nigerian friends complimenting my english coz i dont have the kind of slang that i cant really explain how but i know how it sound, which makes me happy hahaha. Some people dont know where is Sabah but they know where Borneo is -_-". Some Sjung friends thought 'bulih bah kalau kau' sounds like 'bulih ba kalakaw' HAHAHAHA..aduhaiiii how can i not love this conference.

Anyway, enjoy the piccies.

After the closing ceremony which is on Sat, a day after i went to the island coz I think it's bad idea to stay in the mainland when you have a morning flight to catch tmrw. I dont wanna risk to be stuck at the bridge, hari isnin lagi tu. So i stayed a night in Tune hotel and since the check in time is 2pm, i had time to jalan2 walaupun mengantuk.

IMHO, Tune hotel is at the best of location. I traveled alone and enjoyed it, i even went to Prangin Mall, Komtar, and i accidentally found the 'best cendol in Penang' while i was on my way to buy the buah Salak and buah pala (nutmeg) pickles (situated along the Penang road heading to Georgetown). All places are so near to each other.

A is where Tune hotel is situated, B is Prangin Mall and the one in circle is the pedestrian crossing bridge. You dont have to cross the road at all. Along the way to Prangin mall is Komtar Walk. Banyak juga shops sana. Ada wifi lagi tu, sempat sy check-in heh :p.

The Best Penang cendol is the stall on the right. Semua makan di tepi jalan dkt longkang termasuk saya la ba juga.
Pun femes juga sebab pernah masuk dalam nwpaper. ttuuuu nnaaa dia lekat.

All in all, this trip is a memorable one for me, not only because i traveled alone to a new, foreign place which elevates my confidence to another higher level but i make friends with interesting people as well. I shall not forget their remarks about me hahaha. Moreover, i discovered so much thing about myself and people around me. Now i can say i have truly understand the meaning of 'jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan' rather than typing it per se in this post.

Till then.

Oct 11, 2011

Oh polyvore

Still cant get over it hahaha.

Since i am going to present my research paper in an international conference held in USM this sat, this is basically what i'm going to wear. Ini lah ni sindrom kebaruan sama Polyvore ah, please bear with me haha.

1. Cardigan + Short sleeve button shirt - I'm presenting on the 2nd day, so on the 1st day i'm going to be an audience only.

2. Long sleeve button shirt- going to wear it on the presentation day itself. Mau masculine look kunun. Someone ask me to bring a formal coat, just in case.


That's all. Till next polyvore post haha.

Guest blogger: Kim Kardashian wedding invitation

I love Polyvore, and i love you CathJ for having this again! I was unable to join the previous one coz when i saw it, the end time was so near i can only drool other's :D

Kim Kardashian invited you to her wedding.. and as you all know the wedding dress code will be BLACK and WHITE.. you don’t follow the dress code.. you will not allowed to enter to the wedding reception…

So this is it. An invitation to Kim Kardashian wedding, and this is my pick in Polyvore. The dress code is black and white that u've to comply yahh.

I looooove lace and i loooove bodycon. Herve Leger produces nicccceeeeee bodycon dress but i dont see any that i fond of, so i opt for this gorgeous looking lace one shoulder bodycon dress. And a pair of lace peep toe pump oh mai i want that pump.

That's all. See y'all in the wedding! ;)

wedding invitation by kim k

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