Not a love letter

*something had happened and that makes me write this letter* Dear Readers, I've been tried to be as true as i can be. I mocked, I laughed, I make fun of things; be it a living one or otherwise I get angered, i even cursed. I know i've done it all for i refuse to be fake. palsu. ciplak. In fact, i've come clean with my status. Never intend to cheat or hide to anyone. I placed my feet firm on the ground, and i dare to say, i know what i'm doing. Some of you may get intimidate by the way i handle this blog, by all means go create your own blog. Please. And to someone who concerns, thank you. You words did make me think. And to lalings, hm..thanks for being there. Yours truly, Mell yang bernama sexy

Wishes and hugs

I'm wishing Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all who are celebrating.

Be safe on the road Dont drink then drive Kekalkan tahap kolestrol yang unggul Jangan main mercun. Please ok, i'm having hard time to sleep with the sudden loud kabooms Take care!

Saturday's post

Almost everyone is doing this quiz, i might as well join the club right? Someone told me that my name is sexy , somehow i think it's more to unique than sexay.

What's Sexy About Your Name

You are sexy because you are torrid. You are a fiery lover. You have an extremely high sex drive. And you don't do much to control it. You crave variety and excitement. If someone interests you, you'll pursue them... full force. Your passion is all consuming. There's nothing that can quell your sexual energy. Sexual freedom is very important to you. You don't like following rules. You feel that anything between consenting adults should be fair game.

What's Sexy About Your Name?

BF is going to laugh like a retarded tenuk after reading that. Happy weekend peeps.

Straying

People Definitely Like You

You are very well liked, and many people admire you. You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay. Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are! What People Like About You: People like that you truly take and interest in them. Everyone likes to be liked! People like that you take the them to get to know them and make a connection. You make people feel important. What People Don't Like About You: People don't like that you are judgmental and overly opinionated. Even if you are always right, they don't like to be reminded of it!

Do People Like You?

Well mannered? Suka mengolok org ada la..kekekeke Judgmental? Hm... Overly opinionated? True. You've been warned. Why cant people see that as a good thing anyway? (Oh,overly opinionated is bad la,over-sexed is good la konon..opps..*runs away*) The author of this blog is currently not in normal mode. Hormonal changes, my fwens. THIS IS MADNEEESSSS!! Pendarahan Shall Happen...in few days time. *call bank darah..tet tet tet* Remind myself to:

• not wear GS
• not wear light color pants
• buy more "sandwiches"..kuikuikui
• be kind to people. Smile xD

Iklan lololol

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Saya berasa sangat dukacita kerana pengunaan bahasa melayu orang yang mengiklani sangat terhad,membuatkan saya merasa malu membacanya. So very the direct you (mode datin datin)

*fyi,last time i always get confused with the usage of dianugerahkan dan dianugerahi,but no more now. The adv-s are getting nuttier each day. This one i found in August, and they are both of the same crazy level. What's next?

satisfaction vs money

I dislike my recent boring job, however knowing there are tonnes of souls who haven't secure a decent job yet, make me swallow all the bad and the good remains as my booster to not leave. The word 'good' is nothing but the money. Besides, i love self indulgence which certainly requires $$. Job provide me the $$. I am not satisfy with the job yet i drag myself to perform well everyday, which in return gives me anything but satisfaction. On the contrary, i can just sit and do nothing but it seems wrong to me. In whichever position i'm in, i am still in the disadvantage side. At this point i strongly feel i'm driven by the money, not the job. I cant change the nature of my job anyway. FYI, I'm in the process of finding a new job (and i've only been here for like 2 months), hopefully i'll nail one soon. So at the time being, i'll keep holding on to the sole reason why i still here. Money. RM. $$$$$

*I welcome all advices, but do not ask me to quit and marry a rich guy. i'll kick you kaw kaw on ur butt.*

My way of showing the tahap kerinduan-ness

I have to leave her for good due to dad's new heartless rule; No animals in the house. Miraculously, my kononnya-stubborn dad bend the rule after few months and at the moment he's at the living room, memanjakan the anak kucing as if the cat is his youngest child.

I miss this particular guy . No i cant afford to miss all of them . He keeps asking "bila ko mau datang sini?". Poor babeh.

This is ghey. The colored one and the living one. I only like the flowers,the yellow one okie. I cant figure out the intersection between the-ghey-tubbies and 003, lucky i found the word ghey. Bf made this anyway, to amuse the easily-amused me. Dia sangat lucu dan suka buat saya ketawa menghilai hilai. FYI, saya bukan makhluk jadi jadian. Saya cuma istimewa. LOLOLOLOL. (looks and sounds weird pulak kan itu lololol?) This is also drawn by Bf. I think he tried to draw a giraffe because i cant think of any animal with a long neck except a giraffe. This is claimed by Bf as a koala ,which is obviously in the process of purging waste through anal or yang sewaktu dengannya. Seriously, I dont see the point of liking the backside more than the front side. IMO, backside is meant for PURGing only not INSERTing. Kotor! This is for the sake of updating my few-days-abandon blog. If my words are straying, watudu, this is my blog anyway. I miss him badly. Saya mau berjumpa dengan kekasih jantung ku!

Awarded and Awarding

A Blog Award from Life as Experienced

I received this from Beck yang Best, and i first saw this in her blog too. "They all are charmed with the blogs, where in the majority of its aims are to show the marvels and to do friendship; there are persons who are not interested when we give them a prize and then they help to cut these bows; do we want that they are cut or that they propagate? Then let’s try to give more attention to them! So with this prize we must deliver it to 8 bloggers that in turn must make the same thing and put this text." -" I must propagate! And so do you. I'm passing this to: TheHornbill San Piasau Defoo aka Alvin Nielledarren CheguCarol Kadusmama Debbie Izan Umanja

BFF (Blogging Friends Forever) Award

Thanks to Oiga for giving me this

The rules of this award are :1. Only five people are allowed to receive this award. 2. Four of them followers of your blog. 3. One has to be new to your blog and live in another part of of the world. 4. You must link back to who ever gave you the award. I'm giving this to: Esther random thoughts Reno kadamaian Princess S.P.E.A.K Budak Hutan Kuai Happy day ahead people.

Layzeh Wednesday

KK is raining since early morning. And rain is the perfect catalyst to sleep. If it's not because of the constant calls i've received since 10am, i absolutely going to dozed off in this office. Kk looks so gloomy, at one point i think it's already 7pm. I tersangat lah sleepy you kneooww. During lunch i remember i ordered Char siew fan, and after few spoons only i realize it is actually kai fan (chicken rice). Nasib tu nasi sedap. Kesimpulannya, mari kita org KK berhibernate.

Mount Kinabalu Climbing Trip..Come and Join us

We are still in the process of gathering people, so if you're interested, you can informally register your name with Mr San. We are expecting 10 orang yang cantek dan hensem to join this trip. The exact details will be announce soon. Cheers.

Update: Now,we are still trying to gather as many people as possible and we have 3 possible dates to conduct this trip. It's going to be a 4D3N helluva-trip. Dates to choose: a) 5 - 8 Dec 2008 (Hari Raya Qurban is on 8th) b) 24 - 27 Oct 2008 ( Hari Deepavali is on 27th) c) 12 - 15 Feb 2009 (hm..will celebrate the valentine at the top of the mount la ni) You can ask Miss Kuai for further details.

My personal experience with FRIENDS

Friends, they are of many types. So let me tell you the types of friends that i've befriend with, and do tell me if you've encountered one. Friend no 1.

She used to be my room mate back in Labuan. We were so close, my bed was just adjacent to hers, we studied together, we even made code names for the couples in the college, by all means, she's my girlfriend and that was what i am to her, back then.

After the life in kml, we follow the diferrent paths, the paths that have been destined for us. She went to WM to pursue her study, and i'm back to KK, and stay in UMS terchenta. Since that, i havent get a single sms/call from her anymore, and i did sms, just to catch up with her, but so jarang la the sms kena reply. And i, not an emo by nature, move on. In return, i have lots of new friends in uni.

After 4+ years, which is exactly now, i've received her sms-es, asking about my life now etc etc. I am so delighted upon receiving the sms-es, i truly am. Until yesterday, she posted 'something' in her FS shout out, which leaves me nothing but the fishy feeling. So i dig around, and based on the comments in her FS, i get to know that she steals her bestfriend's boyfriend. So by human nature, the bestfriend is so furious hence ended their relationship but she's not the only one. The other friends (aka the bestfriend's supporters), follow the same action and she's all by herself now. I personally think the rampas merampas issue is not my business, so hands off that matter. Either it is true or not, i hope she'll get through. The only thing that makes me wonder is, if her friends still befriended her till now, will she ever care to send me sms/call me? I feel like, a spare part to a cheating boyfriend. Truth hurts. Nevermind. Friend no 2.

They are my long lost friends. The 'long' term is precisely define as 2-3 years. They never sms/call , but one shit day, they sms-ed me and as usual the mukadimah would be 'how are you', where are you now' etc etc, then next would be 'sebenarnya saya ada masalah kewangan bah ni, saya mau pinjam duit, bulan depan baru saya bayar ah'. Very straight and shameless. They have friends over there, and they can simply ask them what, why bother to buang duit sms to me, and ask to spare some $$ for them. Crazy. And i, as they know are so soft hearted but i'm not stupid. You can tell whether i give them the $$ or not. I always believe that once i give them, there'll always be the 2nd time. There's no way i would let it happen.

Friend no 3.

This type hurts me the most. During my 1st year in uni, i am so naive. Every time my coursemates want to copy my notes/ copy my tutorial's answer, i'll give them. And every time the test is about to be conduct, the lecturer will give hints for the questions. At the end of the class, they asked for the hints, which puzzled me 'they did attend the class, but how come they do not take note of that?'. Weird. In short, i never fail to share what i have with them. Until one day, i saw this one particular friend is solving a past year's question which makes me so hairan, how come they didnt even think of sparing 1 copy for me, they know i'd be happy to solve it and share with them. Then i ask, "mana ko dapat ni?" , she said "alah, kami ngam2 sj potostat ni,nti la ko potostat lagi ah". When i asked for the paper the next day, they come up with lots of excuses, as if they dont want me to get one. Shit. It did hurts me. I never try to ask from other coursemates because belum biasa lagi dengan dorang, and i'd be terribly hurt if they give the same lame excuses like my friends did. There were so many occasions lagi prior to that, but this past year's question thingy is the turning point. I blame it all on my naive-ness. How could i think i would get the same thing in return by helping them in the best way i can. From that onwards, i'm trying to think as real as i can. I only mix with them during happy hour time, and pasal notes/tutorials, berusaha la sendiri. They did sense me being so lokek with notes, and i know they did talk at my back and try to pulaukan me. I dont care and i never give a fuss. At least, after 4 years, my cgpa is the highest among the bumiputras in the course. Enough to shut their mouths up. Conclusively, i believe the saying that goes " everything happens for a reason". I never blame them, well actually i did few times . In my clear state of mind, i now thank them for giving me these life lessons, though it came in a tough ways. And i will try my best being a good friend to myself and to others.

Sunday tag

This is a hell-long tag passed on me by Wel. 1. The who tag/pass you is? Suda terjawab soalan mu 2. Your relationship with him/her is? We're friends. 3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? Suka minum beer, suka kerja keras, rajin bikin tag, suka tgk bleach and suka sweetie (opps,ni utk kasi cukup lima baini,jan mareh) 4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you? He visits my blog eventhough he's swamps with his pilling works. 5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you? "ko mmg macam tagalog". Tidak akan ku lupakan itu wahai incik Wel. 6. If she/he become your lover you will? I will consider it, but i'm not available anymore. kekeke. 7. If she/he become your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be? He must stop drinking beers and start taking stouts. haha. 8. If she/he become your enemy, you will? I dont want to be an enemy to anyone. So i'm skipping this. 9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be? Teda reason sy bilang. 10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is? Haha..tiada la..macam ada unsur2 18sx ni soalan tau. Bikin gaaali. 11. Your overall impression of her/him is? Based on his daily posts, i reckon this guy must be great in terms of his dedication to work and his friendship to anyone. 12. How you think people around you will feel about you? I dont care. I'm a hardcore narcissist. 13. The characters you love of yourself are? My narcissism. That gives me the confidence. 14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are? Impatient, and short tempered. Haihz. 15. The most ideal person you want to be is?

Oprah (i'm not gay ok?)

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them: I care about you people too. 17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. 1. Andrik, 2. Oiga, 3. San 4. Beck 5. Esther 6. Urang Ranau 7. Reno 8. Kadus mama 9. Budak Hutan 10. Alvin penyanyi 18. Who is No.6 having relationship with? Her cat. 19. Is No.9 a male or female? Male 20. If No.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? Together in terms of? they are both male, so i think in terms of friendship there'll be no fuss. 21. What is No.2 studying about? He's already working, and he's not a teacher ok. (balik2 suda sy ulang tu kan Oiga) 22. When was the last time you had a chat with No.3? We never chat before, just leaving and replying msgs in the chatbox. 23. What kind of music band does No.8 like? Sy rasa..apa2 yg bukan rock la. haha..jawapan selamat ni. 24. Does No.1 have any siblings? Maybe. 25. will you woo No.3? Haha..it is yet to happen. 26. How about No.7? Reno? He's a busy guy. Well, he's got to do what he has to do. 27. Is No.4 single? Ya,positive. 28. What is the surname of No.5? Look at her url's. 29. What's the hobby of No.10? Menyanyi dan berniaga BBKK's merchandise. 30. Does No.5 and 9 get along well? Maybe. 31. Where is No.2 studying at? Oiga,let me guess. UPM kan. kekeke.. 32. Talk something casually about No.1? He loves to eat. 33. Have you tried developing feelings for No.6? Ya, developing the friendship feelings. 34. Where does No.9 live at? Di rumah yang terchenta. 35. What colour does No.4 like? Certainly black, itam. 36. Are No.5 and 1 best friends? Nope. 37. Is No.7 the sexiest person in the world? Iya, betul kan Reno? 38. What is No.6 doing now? Maybe dia tgh main sama kusing dia. hehe Okie. The tag-ies can either opt to answer this tag or not. That's all for sunday. Tomorrow is monday.

Tag combo

The tag is usually come with rules, but i'm about to break it. Am posting the tags with answers only. Here goes...

Tag 1 from Esther

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? I'll create bad damage on his car.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be? Macam pernah jawab sj ni..hm..i want to have Oprah's life.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick? Your butt.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars? Invest it.

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend? It's possible but i wont. Come on la, the feeling would be really weird.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone? Both

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

As long as he loves me.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? nothing.

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor? My bf because we both are not good at it. haha

10. What takes you down the fastest? Failed in this one particular interview. I really thought i can make it to the next level, but to no avail.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time? Hm..we'll see.

12. What’s your fear? Snakes.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? Pretty, kind, smart..so now go click her link.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor? Single and rich.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up? Look at my clock. 'hm..awal masih ni'

16. Would you give all in a relationship? Give all? ehem. I wont.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick? I wouldnt pick anyone,fall in love with 2 ppl at the same time is not considered as love, it's merely lust.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done? If the 'someone' are my loved ones, then there's no harm of trying.

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship? Both. Tag 2 by Ann 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself

1. I'm born in KK, i was brought up in LDatu, I currently live in Mgatal and my parent's kg is at Ranau.

2. Due to the fact no 1, i always having problem answering "kau orang mana?". Help me.

3. I'm afraid of dogs because i've been chased by 5-6 stray dogs when i was 11, but i love puppies.

4. My boyfriend is a Sarawakian and he blogs too.

5. I obtain my BEng (hons) last August.

6. The most horrifying test that i've seated is JPJ driving test. And i havent drive for 1 year already. kekeke..

7. I love my cat so much until i make him my real best friend. I believe i am born as a cat in my past life.. haha.

8. I start blogging on 2007, using blogsome.

9. I love foods but i dont usually finish eating my food.

10. I'm a Dusun-ese. Not tagalog/indian/chinese/melayu as u ppl perceived. haha

11. I love the band 911 since i was 11, and i still love 'em till now. I've fall for them, deeply..huhu

12. I dont know how to speak my native languange and i'm not proud of that . I welcome anyone to teach me.

13. Wo ming pai huayu yi tian tian. Wo ye keyi xie hanzi.

14. I'm not fond of history or anything that needs to be memorize eg. biology.

15. My childhood ambition is to be a lawyer. That's all folks.

Tell me now

Yesterday.. Pos laju gaman: Ini rumah ko ka? Me: dalam hati, budus betul. Apa pula rumah, cuba ko tgk tu address, ada Sdn. Bhd. baitu. Pos laju gaman: *diam*................. bah, ko tulis nama sini then tulis IC ko sini, then sign. Me: *tulis tulis tulis* Pos laju gaman: *trying to pronounce my name*.. Ko ni tagalog ka? Me: *malas mau layan* Iya. Nah, siap. Pos laju gaman: Ok. Makasih. Me: Ok. dalam hati, kitai kau panggil sia tagalog.

Throughout my life, I've been perceived as Chinese/Malay and never as Tagalog. Nevermind, i accept it as a compliment. kekeke.

One fact that i can relate to this is, my dad's name memang berunsurkan melayu, but he's a pure Dusun. I remember one Ustaz (in my secondary school), asked me "ur dad convert to kristian ka?". Panas hati aku mendengarnya.

I did asked my grandma about dad's name. She answered 'bapa ko lahir time hari raya haji, tu bidan yang kasi cadang tu nama' My dad is the eldest in family. So, i thought 'Oh, maybe si nenek belum champion lagi kasi nama anak time tu. nda apa la'

Nda apa kunun! The siblings' name semua berunsurkan english kunun, and in birth cert stated Christian, but lepas tengok nama bapa, masih juga org fikir kami ni Muslim. Well, i cant blame the short minded type of ppl. If they are curious, all they need to do is ASK, dont simply make assumption. If u cant help urself from making one, bear in mind that ur assumption can be true or false. Kesimpulannya, the father's name memang sangat penting. And my grandma is innocent :p And i vowed to myself, i will not name my kids based on occasion. Biarpun dia lahir time deepavali, i wont name her Kajol, kalau lelaki hmm..kumar la :p However, when i come to think of this, my dad's name is decent, compared to...hm...certain people la. You see, i've been seeing the CVs of the crew going to offshore for the company's recent project Ada jg la yg bikin funny, i cant help myself from laughing. common sense, when it's funny, you laugh not cry. So now tell me. If i didnt tell you that i am of the race of Dusun, what do u think i am? No offence ppl, but i think Sabahans are good in recognizing people (in terms of what race is he/she) due to the nature's of our ppl in Sabah but i welcome all. Tell me,i want to know. Update: Si sweetie cakap i look like indian..nanti ko sweetie.. hahahaha

9/11 is to be remember in a good way..

At some part of the world, the date of 9/11 bring grieves to them as that was the date....you know what happened.. However today..

I am revealing the face of Mell f and this has nothing to do with lessening the pain they have endured but at least, i remember 9/11 in a good way

T for Tenuk :p

This blog is meant to be anonymous when i first started blogging but as time goes by, i guess nda payah la ba sy jadi skema sangat mau jadi anon but i'm not about to put my pics in every posts la pulak. In moderate level la kunun. So 9/11 is the date when this blog is officially non-anonymous anymore. hehe. Oh ya, you can make your own motivational poster here. I'm telling you, it's really fun.

Oiga tagged me

Ornest tagged me. This is the same tag passed to me by San. Eventually, i didnt do the tag instead i reviewed him. After seeing this tag being passed to me again, *insert lagu kitaro* ni memang jodoh yang tidak dapat dihalang. Aku redha dan pasrah. Here goes ni tag panjang, bring ur coffee and keropoks along. At what age do you wish to marry? At any age before i hit 30. So kepada yang berkenaan,sila ambil perhatian yg serius. What is your most favourite thing to do? A lot, but nothing beats sleeping. What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat? Oiga, i agree with you..haha If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be? To have a life, similar to Oprah W. If u dont know Oprah, google. Do you believe you can survive without money? I dont. nuff said. What are you afraid to lose the most? Loved ones. What do you feel like doing right now? Am not telling. hints: 3 aplhabets. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Ya,tatap kan Oiga. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you. Oiga : i. Tinggal di keningau (hope i wont get into trouble by revealing this) ii. Dia bukan cikgu iii. Suka makan bun panas What are the requirements that you wish from your other half? To be mentally stable because i can be hard to handle at times. Seriously. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad? He mocks. I cant stand ppl without manners. What is your ambition? To be what i am now,minus the boredness. Is anyone really perfect? Agree with you Oiga. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick ? Rich. I am born happy. hehe If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change? I am impatient and i lose tempered in a blink. I dont like that. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with? My cat (due to a close-knit relationship with him, i considered my handsome meow as human being now on) How do you see yourself in 10 years time? Hot wife, a great mom, and hopefully still a blogger..hehe If someone had found a path to immortality to be bestowed upon you ... I'm not buying it. If you could compete in the Olympics, what event would you participate in? Swimming and i guarantee will lose. haha What does happiness means to you and are you satisfied with what you’ve got? Would you select satisfaction over happiness? Twisted ba this Q. Malas mau jawab. All that i know, i am happy and feeling content with my current life. I am not tagging anyone. hehe..

San, read this.

Incik San, i said i will redo the tag, but honestly, i dont mean that. Panjang bah the tag. However, i'm going to give a short tribute to Incik San yang kena paksa oleh pundan yg pemaksa, to justify my laziness answering the long tag. Boleh ba kan kalau sia San. LOL. I was at his site, listening to the songs in his playlist. I'm glad to know Incik San is fond of oldies songs too, which is no different from me. Yeay. However, i find it very amusing with the way Incik San named each songs in the playlist.

-Kuling kuling -Kungkung sapi -kisas tuntung -treng treng -Poro pou pou pou -Tung turu tung tung -Lagu kasi tidur orang mabuk- which is actually You took my heart away by MLTR. lol -kauh sangat santik- You're beautiful by siapa lagi -Cant buy me love- which is actually Silence is Golden by Frank Valli..Lucu ba kau Sannnnnn!!! Ko bikin sia silap cari lirik. The only song he named correctly is poco poco. haha..mimang la kau ah san.

I think he purposely done that to amuse people like me. LOL. San, i did get amuse by that. Thanks for making my day. haha. I'm planning to make a post about each bloggers in my bloglist. One by every week. What do you think? Hm.. bagus sia bikin poll mcm si beck. Oh, beck's chatbox is going to be my next port to spam :p . She is so real ,not to mention friendly too.

Teka Teki

Perbualan di siang hari, between me and my younger brother (YB):

YB: Ada teka teki ni,jawab la kalau ko pandai. Me: Silakan.. YB: Tuhan Maha Penyembuh, Doktor Maha ..? Me: Em..apa ah..Doktor Maha peng-inject mungkin.. YB: Salah..Doktor Maha-thir...hahahahaha Me: Hahahaha...Buduh ko sana..

Itu la perbualan mesra di antara kakak dan adik di hujung minggu. Happy weekend people. Berteka teki la bersama yang tersayang.

Oscar award..perasan la lu!

I got an award each from Oiga and Noy Thank you Thank you So now i shall name 7 recipients for both of the awards Nielledarren she reads my blog since era blogsome lagi..thanks babe Urang Ranau lagu di blog dia paling best Reno paling lucu dalam dunia bumi Wel paling suka comment i Andrik i win the championship last week, i thank you by giving u these San...tut jan marah Esther as to motivate you to blog often :)

feeling disturbed

This is a terribly sad story, if u're an emo like me, expect the worst from this real story. This happened in Sabah. Dead UMS student is believed has been raped before murdered. I've heard about this since last week; I've been reading this story through the posted bulletins in my friendster, i refuse to believe at first because this kind of story will surely be a headline in our local newspapers, but i do not see the case in DE or NST new sabah times yet. So without any concrete proof, i assume it's merely a rumour. Until yesterday. Read the official news here and in this blog, here Remember the post about wardrobe malfunction? I am glad i stayed in the office, who knows what might happen to me that day. palis palis. To all the females, regardless of where you are, do not go out alone, do not take ride from kereta sapu, conclusively, be safe. I still remember the previous case of kidnapped and brutally raped, happened to UMS student too. tv3 reported the beasts bite her nipples off (aka gigit sampai putus). Sial. Babi. I start my day with the feeling disturbed by the news. Just imagine, the dead body is already rotten and only after few days the family acknowledge about her lost. Haiz.. So guys, make sure you know the whereabouts of your loved ones. And girls, you should do the same too. There's nothing wrong with reporting your whereabouts to ur loved ones because u'll never know what might happen to you in few mins ahead. Malang tidak berbau, so you better dont take the risk. Me and BF are practicing the reporting method, i'm comfortable with it, same goes to him, at least that's what he told me.It has become our culture of taking care of one another, those who don't understand of course will question the act, but who cares, we know it better. In fact, it's a personal life between two people, why other ppl bother trying to understand our act? We run the relationship by our own way la bah,why should we follow your way and please you. why i wrote this anyway..kebluran..haiz Anyway, the advice for today, be safe!

Wardrobe malfunction..

Last week Kadus mama wrote a post about G-string and having mensus. I find it most likely to happen for females who loves GS i love GS too :p , but it'll be troublesome if you have unpredictable mensus. Now i'm talking about white blouse. I am wearing white blouse and it is neither cotton nor silk material. The blouse is of the material that can see through.*only now i realized it cant be paired with certain colour of bra* I'm wearing 'colored' bra. (am not telling the colour!) When i was in the washroom few hours ago, i am so shock to see my colored bra is more revealing than the blouse itself! matai la

The blame goes all on me. I woke up 20mins late from my normal wake up time, giving me mere 15mins to get ready. My sister fetches me to work everyday since i dont own a car..yet, and she's very strict about time. I'd rather listen to Marilyn Manson's songs for 1 hour than listen to her 5 mins nags. So with 15mins plus the possibilty of her to nag macam nenek kebayan, that is what happen. bad decision. Hmmm..Aku menyesal..wuwuwuwu

So how on earth should i go to take lunch? A) Just go out and act like nothing happen..but be prepare to encounter with 'those' naughty eyes which is so membencikan! B) Fast for 5 hours..gulp -_-" I cant ask for colleague's help because this company is only consist of 1 male boss and 1 female admin+ me. Both of them are not around. So how lah? Lesson learnt. *sigh*

Back to life..huhu

*Sedey mode*

Habis suda cuti I'm back to reality.. Do what u want to do to me..wuwuwuwu.. *Happy mode*

This is how i celebrated our 2nd bf-gf anniversary at 12.01am, 1st Sept'08, ALONE

This is what i MMS to him. I seldom drink alcohol and he dared me to drink a can of that , just for that special occasion kunun . Boleh ba kalau kau hubbeh. Stella sangatla tidak sedap dan pahiiiit! Sedap lagi air tebu 50sen. Buang duit sija beli ni satellaaaaaa!!!

The fact that we've come this far, makes me believe we can make it further. 2 years of ups and downs, i've to admit i'm still learning and bound to make mistakes along the way. Hopefully we can make this, although we are 1 hour 15mins distant from each other. I heart you with all my veins. Happy 2 years of togetherness

Ya, i memang jiwang.